“Your Score: 41 – According to your score you are rated as SEVERELY DEPRESSED. You should consult a mental heathcare professional for possible treatment. If you are having suicidal ideations please seek treatment immediately.”
…well ok but tomorrow what will my score be? huh?
Depression is not being able to see the wood for the trees. Depression is a storm in a teacup. Something feeling much worse than it is, not being able to fix what’s wrong or even see what’s wrong because it all looks wrong. In the words of twin number 2 “Don’t want it!” “What don’t you want?” You can’t answer because you just don’t want it.
When you are depressed you can enjoy feeling hungry and also justify binging. You suddenly have no direction to choose something worthwhile to do and yet there seems to be an overwhelming amount to be done.
Life seems so long and empty and yet so wasted…and you seem powerless to do anything other than worry about all this and wait for the feeling to pass…if you are lucky and you know it will pass.
What I wonder is… and my doctor couldn’t answer this… ‘if I am depressed and that is me, but I can’t function very well as me when I am depressed… and if I take pills and so I’m not depressed any more and then I can function as me – am I more me or less me than when I’m depressed?’ Bless him he didn’t laugh at me he actually thought about it.